I lost my trust in everyone. Family, parents, friends, government, media, scientists, spiritual leaders. I could not find a fair person to listen to and trust. Thus I had to become the change I wished I could see in the world.
Becoming zero
I put aside all I believed. I built from the ground again. I promised myself to seek the truth, as long as I breath.
Observation, thinking, impartiality
I knew I had to spend time and energy. Laziness was no excuse for finding the truth. To gain, once must spend. And I had to be faire and unbiased.
Nature vs human design
I am an engineer. I will compare what I see in the nature with what we humans have created. I make a list. Then abductively decide wheather the world is designed or not.
Life & death
I find definitions. And I learn from them.
Individuality
I am separate from you. You are separate from me.
Nature is designed
It's my personal truth. I can't prove it to others. But I have come to the conclusion that nature is designed. Because nature has designs that are superior to intelligent human's designs. Nature > human design => nature is designed.
Separation of design and designer(s)
It's an inductive reasoning. I can't find even one example where the desig is the designer itself. Design is not the designer.
Design complexity
As an engineer I know that the more complex a design is, the more power and knowledge the designer has had. I know about design patterns and decision-making. Thus I know the designer(s) has/have huge power and knowledge.
Constancy
I see that natural fundamental laws have worked for near 14 billion years and they are not changed. For me this means that there is only one will. Natural laws's constancy => One will, one designer.
Designing evil
One designer + existence of evil => evil is designed by the designer.
Source of good and evil
Natural evil + man's evil (moral evil) (intentional) + satan's evil are all designed by The Designer.
Knowing no more about the designer
What should I do next?
Leave at this point
Though a lot of questions are unanswered. Though this science bred nescensnce.
Assume more using rationalistic approach
For example, since the designer is strong and capable, thus he must have muscles, or big hands. I thought, but I found nothing.
Search for the designer => abductive reasoning => My choice
I started the path, to find the truth. The same intention still holds for continuation.
The Designer I know
Omnipotent, omniscient, single, separate from the design, source of good and evil. Even if everything perish, I know him. Not from parents, not from books, not from friends or media, but from my own rational and personal truth.
Deism (designer has abandoned the design) => a possibility
Claim of contacting the designer => I know it's not the case
Asking others => abductive reasoning => My choice
Where to search?
All claims.
What to search?
The Designer. Omnipotent, omniscient, single, separate from the design, source of good and evil.
Man-made cults and claims
No claim about the designer I know, thus all fail in my personal truth.
Religions and deity comparisons
Just tell me about your deities. Not about any detail other than the deities. I'm searching for The Designer.
Allah
Almost the only match
Allah
Who is he? What does he? Why and how?
Quran
Is the Quran tampered?
Muhammad
Has Muhammad authored the Quran himself?
Old codexis
Abductive reasoning => at least most of the Quran is not tampered with. At least The Designer makes sense.
High compatibility with science
Far from chance, not the authorship of Muhammad
I found it
I see and know by heart that there is no God, but Allah (Al + Ilah => The God). He is. And none is but him. If is, is by his will. And If he wills, won't be. Muhammad is his messenger. And Quran is his authorship.